Well, it was a week ago today that the two boys left our home. Kaleb and Dylan were a handful but they made our house loud and fun too. We realized what it meant to be parents for the first time.
Although this was a fun experience, it also sent us spinning. Our thoughts had always been that we would foster to adopt, not just foster. When we took the boys we were told that grandparents didn't want them and that the parents could not handle them and would more than likely have the rights terminated. So to find out that there were grandparents who wanted them, sent us for a little bit of a loop. It is all for the best we know and we know that God's hand is in it all, but it has like I said made us re-look at what we are to do.
The day after the boys left our home, we got a call from our agency saying that they had a one year old boy. I had to tell them no, due to the fact that we are scared. There I said it, we are scared that if we get another child and really get attached that they will be taken away from us. I know you are thinking, well that is what foster to adopt is. Yes, it is, but until you have been through it, quit saying it. It isn't that easy. We asked for a break from our agency and told them that we would call them when we were ready to start the process again. We pray that God will show us guidance as we re-evaluate our profile for adoption.
Thank you all for the support that was shown to us through the time that we had the boys and after the boys were gone. The house is quiet now and for the first time in a month, I actually had time to clean the house, like really clean it, dust, vacuum. Not just pick it up and make it look nice. You have been there, don't lie.
Although this was a fun experience, it also sent us spinning. Our thoughts had always been that we would foster to adopt, not just foster. When we took the boys we were told that grandparents didn't want them and that the parents could not handle them and would more than likely have the rights terminated. So to find out that there were grandparents who wanted them, sent us for a little bit of a loop. It is all for the best we know and we know that God's hand is in it all, but it has like I said made us re-look at what we are to do.
The day after the boys left our home, we got a call from our agency saying that they had a one year old boy. I had to tell them no, due to the fact that we are scared. There I said it, we are scared that if we get another child and really get attached that they will be taken away from us. I know you are thinking, well that is what foster to adopt is. Yes, it is, but until you have been through it, quit saying it. It isn't that easy. We asked for a break from our agency and told them that we would call them when we were ready to start the process again. We pray that God will show us guidance as we re-evaluate our profile for adoption.
Thank you all for the support that was shown to us through the time that we had the boys and after the boys were gone. The house is quiet now and for the first time in a month, I actually had time to clean the house, like really clean it, dust, vacuum. Not just pick it up and make it look nice. You have been there, don't lie.
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